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a.l.o.n.e

walking through the gloomy maze
all alone in the dark
i shivered i panicked
i cried for help

with all my courage and heart
i tried to find my way out
you said you would be there when i called
but all i saw was
a dark and eerie path

i calmed myself
i tried not to cry
i told myself
its not worth the try
i relied on you
but you left me all alone
i realized
you are nothing afterall

u said i meant the world to you
but your actions don't prove them true
i start questioning
what am i to you
u walked out of my life
without a single trace
my efforts in finding them
were swept away

told myself to rely ownself
never trust anyone else
giving them ure everything
is not worth the wait
no one is worth
except for yourself

hearts are not meant to be opened
to everyone easily
hold back
keep them
never give it to someone else

in search of your trail
i knew i had to make my own
i grew i understood
and now
its time for me to
live for my own

碎了

灿烂的太阳 被灰色的云朵遮住了
多么想与众人分享他的快乐
却无法达成， 多么的失望
全心全意 用经全力 向前冲
还是无法达到最终得梦想。

心碎了 梦毁了
一切也变了
被抛弃的玻璃碎
没人管
还抱着“主人还爱着我，不会丢下我不管”
的希望 的它
一天比一天 失望
时间久了
已破碎的玻璃
渐渐的被众人清理掉
刚开始的希望
也渐渐的消失

主人回来了
使着用剩下的玻璃碎
拼回他所抛弃的玻璃
但无法回到原始的模样
因为某些碎片
已被众人带走了

finding

every night
i lie on the bed
forcing myself to fall asleep
but nothing seems to be working
what's making me stay awake?
my thoughts? my worries?
am i really thinking alot?
but what am i thinking?
what worries do i have?

why do i feel that its starting all over again?
my feelings my mind my focus
changed
im afraid!
afraid of the past
afraid of the future
i dont know what lies ahead
and that scares me

what do i want?
what can i do to find out
what i really want
torn in between such situations
i cant seem to find a way out
and i guess
thats slowly killing me
my drive my motivatin my fire
they're slowly fading away

reaching out for it

with all my heart and soul

whilst protecting myself

from falling into it

Dream and Discover

A new day, a new life, a new journey, a new excitement, a new adventure.

Been thinking a lot these few days. Realised what is worth hanging on to and what is not. All journeys have their beginning and ending.

The start of an adventure is usually excited, anticipating, yet nervous, having to figure out what lies ahead; facing it with enthusiasm, believing there's no gloomy days ahead, just bright and sunny days.

As the journey moves on, dark and gloomy days appear, finding it difficult to cope, and constantly complaining the existence of such days, fighting over immaterial matters; distorting the whole adventure, slowing things down, and yet making through the hard times, which brings us to a new day, a bright one indeed. A bright and sunny day, humming our favourite song, enjoying every happy moments we spent. But, such times end quickly without even realising it. Going through such times, blinded by what's left in front, believing this is the right one, not discovering the undiscovered, what a waste.

A tiring yet adventurous one, been an up- and down-hill ride, going through it from time to time, getting bored and sick of it, but not wanting to end it, see no diversed path, still holding on to initial beliefs, convincing it will work - time will prove it.

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."

-- Mark Twain

Dare to dream

Dare to discover

Life is short

Don't live with regrets

Blinded before

a new journey ahead . . . .

things happened for the past few weeks which made me lost all my concentration. i cried, i blamed, i complained.

thinking back on what i done, i feel so stupid right now.

what was i thinking?

i have my own life to live. the future is bright ahead.

at least i am happy with my life right now. suddenly i realised so many things that i never knew all these while. it's surprising to hear that honestly, but im glad.

at least i know the truth, and i'm happy with it.

=)

people get blinded often

and it takes time to realise

the world is not dull afterall

life is a journey

its been pretty long since my last post. . *dead blog*

well. . a quick update on my life so far

- easter break started end of march
- visited sheik at manchester
- visited ron at birmingham
- visited prague
- twisted my ankle at prague
- ron came down to bristol
- met up with jia and went around bristol
- went to the mobile theme park at the Downs
- emo-ed *some of u might know what happened*
- tried revising for finals, but failed
- emo-ed even more
- went to the library for group revision
- now revising at hme :) *more effective i should say*
- made things clear (=
- miss hanging around with my frens *haven't been talking to u guys much lately*
- went for my first acupuncture session at bristol to treat my ankle, but apparently found out more about other problems *darn expensive, i'll be soo broke by the time i finish my treatments*
- attending jia' bday bash this sat
- dont know wht present to buy
- classes started *last week of classes for my degree year* i don't want it to end!
- really have to focus on revision
- exams in 2 weeks
- summer holiday trip in one month
- back home in 2 months

Basically, books lecture notes tutorials additional articles blackboard calculator and table is what my life is all about right now.

My final exam is up in 2 weeks should concentrate hard on it. i dont want to just pass. i want to score but im doubting myself. been lazing around alot - facebook msn tvshows, basically my laptop is my main distraction right now!! -

Time flies without even me realising it. i cant believe that i will be finishing my degree programme soon. the memories of entering college life is still so fresh in my mind, moreover uni life. it seems like just yesterday i started college, and here i am ending my course in 1 month's time. gosh.

been keeping in touch with high school mates recently and, to be honest, it does feel good, but the sad thing is, it brings back all the high school memories that we shared, and makes me want to turn back time, and never leave that period. to all youngsters out the *gosh i sound old, , pfft* enjoy your high school years. they are THE BEST YEARS OF YOUR LIFE. *sigh, , right now, i do regret not being active that time*.

the best thing about high school, to me, is having all your classmates around with you, spending the best times with them - fooling around, sharing the happiness and sadness, gossiping, causing chaos in class, eating in class, sleeping in class, skipping class, texting in class, hiding all our stuffs when we know there are spot checks. . . . .. and the list goes on and on and on.

it really makes me cherish my high school mates alot, realising that they are the ones closest to us, and knows us best. they are by far the ones whom you can trust most, and will always be there for you no matter what happpens. no doubt friends from college and university can be your true friends, but to me, most of them are just friends whom you can mix along, have fun with, but not when sharing your deepest thoughts. *well, thats to me, not everyone thinks so* :)

gosh, , i really miss high school. how i wish i could turn back time, but then, life is all about moving on. the end of a journey is abeginning of another journey. and it goes on and on. all those memories will definitely remain in our hearts till the very end of our journey. it's always good to think back the good and bad times we've been through, and it makes you cherish them more than anything . .

friends come and go

but truefriends are hard to find